Trying to Make Myself Cry

It's been a while since I last cried hard. Now, I'm finding it very difficult to cry. When I'm out there, I always feel like crying, but every time I get the chance to be alone and do it, I can't. I've tried to suppress and suck up all my emotions that it's now really hard to cry. Crying makes everyone feel good afterwards. It's therapeutic. That's exactly what I need right now, to try to let all my worries, anger, pain, and sadness go, but I can't do it. Last time I really cried was when I watched "Grave of the Fireflies." I don't think I have the time to watch that just so I can cry. It feels like I can't do any productive work until I cry hard.