The New Lancer!

"As of 2006, 200 million blogs were left without updates."

The new 2008 Lancer GTS is awesome! Here's a pic:
The new Evo will come out next year, but the new Lancer is out now! Damn, I want one! It's clutchless! Yay! XD

Oh, and in other news, there's been another campus shooting here in the US, this time at Virginia Tech. I have some issues of my own about the world and stuff, but I'd never shoot anyone just to express my anger, then kill myself. Well, if I had to kill someone, it'd only be myself. I won't go as far as killing other people. That's just plain pathetic! An interesting fact for me about this is that the killer was a Korean immigrant. Hmm, I wonder what triggered his psychotic mind... well, that's it for now, I'll post some more news later.

Going Insane

"Pele has always hated his nickname, which he says sounds like 'baby-talk in Portuguese'."

I'm not sure, but maybe I can be considered, medically, as "insane" if I go and let myself be checked by a psychiatrist. This feeling of loneliness is taking over my life. I searched "loneliness" on Google, and I found a website that gives the reasons why people feel lonely, and almost all of those reasons can be found in my situation. This is really crazy, but it's true. Maybe it's safe to call myself "mentally and emotionally unstable." I've been like this for as long as I can remember. I just hate it so much; I really want to change my perspective in life. I want to be a happy person once again, assuming that I once was a happy person. I can't even do my essay because of this! And it's due next week! I always hear in church that Jesus is the only one who can take away loneliness, the one who can fill the holes inside of people. Is this really true? If it is, then I want Him inside me very badly. But how do I do that? Do I just ask for it? I already did that several times, but nothing happened. Either I'm not doing it right, or it's all fiction. Is there a right way to talk to God? Am I not really saying what I want to say to Him every time I try and talk to Him? Why won't He show Himself to me? Is it wrong to ask for a hard and tangible evidence that He really exists? I don't really have anyone to talk to anymore. I can't find the right people to really understand what I'm going through. Well maybe I have to work on myself opening up, but how do I know that the people I talk to will understand what I have to say? I hate this... see, I always post negative things on this blog! I'm frighteningly pessimistic! I really want to change, but it's almost impossible! God, if You're really there, I beg you, please show Yourself in my life right now... I just can't take this anymore....

And The Next Essay Arrives...

"Fingerprints of koala bears are similar (in pattern, shape and size) to the fingerprints of humans."

It's 12:22 am, and I'm still awake. I got nothing better to do than posting another blog here. It's spring break, so lucky me, hehe, I guess. But I have another essay to do! And I'm still not done with the book! Yes, it's a lot harder than the previous one, and I need more brainpower to fully understand it. I just finished reading the second to the last chapter tonight. I'm gonna finish reading it tomorrow, and maybe start doing the draft. But I really like this book. It's this one:
It's a nonfiction book about Richard Rodriguez and the inevitable change that education gave him. In some ways, I can relate to him and understand the loneliness he faced as he went through his academic studies. Hmm, I guess nerds do have problems with their intellect when they try to be like everybody else. It's lonely to be at the top...

I'm really sleepy now, so I'm out! See you next time!