So There IS Something Wrong With Me

I knew it. There's definitely something wrong with me. Maybe that's the reason why my social (and very likely, emotional and mental as well) health is very fucked up. This is an emergency crisis. Life has been sucked out from me, every last drop of it. I've been acting like a zombie for a very long time. This is bad, REAL bad. I know I have to change, but I really need other people's help. But I don't know how to tell them about this. It's too embarrassing and humiliating that I'm having this pathetic problem. Fuck. What am I gonna do?