I wanna trust God, but He can be very cynical and twisted sometimes...

He knows I'm a very sensitive person, and He knows that I gotta try to forget about her. Letting her text me is just... sick, man. If He thinks she's not the one for me, then by all means, as much as possible, don't let anything happen that will remind me of her! I mean, even if it's not His fault that I fell for her, then He must have the power to stop this. Letting her text just to let me see my sister talk to her on the phone about the guy she might be interested in later at night...

Come on, God, if you're really the Good Lord that your followers declare You are, then please have mercy and just take this feeling away. And it would be really nice if You'll finally give the desire of my heart. If there's anything that I'm supposed to do to gain my desire, then please let me know. I know I'm not perfect, but non-believers fall in love, and You just let them do whatever they want. I wanna believe and trust You, so what do You want me to do? Please, let me know... Just let me know... I wanna fall in love and be loved at the same time...

Most Annoying Valentine's Day Ever

2009's Valentine's Day has been the most annoying and frustrating one for me. First, me and my family and friends were going to eat at Cheesecake Factory, but there were so many people, we had to go somewhere else. So we went to this place near our place, but they don't allow people under 21. Then, we tried going to this restaurant across the street, but it's like a Koreans-only place, so we were out of place and just ordered one item to make those people happy. Finally, we went to an Italian restaurant on Hollywood called Miceli's but the food took too long to arrive. By the time we got our food, we already lost our appetite and became very sleepy. Plus, we had to pay $180 for everything, including tax!! Damn!! It really is a "Screw love!" day!

NOT AGAIN...

IT'S THE CURSE... IT'S THE FUCKING CURSE... I FUCKING SCREWED UP AGAIN... I'M A FUCKING SCREW-UP... HOW MANY TIMES DOES IT HAVE TO HAPPEN UNTIL I LEARN MY LESSONS.... THIS HAS GOT TO STOP.... PLEASE.... GOD.... JUST MAKE IT STOP...... NOT ANYMORE....