Can The Economy Get Any Kinder?

I have so many things in my head that I need to buy/think I need to buy: buy a car, go to a dentist, go have my eyes checked, buy a better battery for my netbook, buy a new PC, etc. I really need a job so that I can give money to my parents also. I'm so broke right now, it's really depressing. And I'm planning to get a haircut later this morning. All my remaining money won't come back, and nobody wants to hire me. What should I do, resort to prayer? Is that really going to help make my life better? If I asked for a better life, will I get it? We can barely even pay for school. Right now, all I can think about is how to have so much money that we no longer have anymore debts or problems about how to pay for anything. I've lost my faith on prayer. I'm tired of relying on divine power. I thought tithing will work, but it seems it doesn't work for me, or for my parents. There are so many godless people who have successful lives. Good things happen to bad people. I need those resources. I need change in my life, and it needs to happen now. Where is justice when I need it? I want to move on; I can't just keep having this stupid life forever. I can't accept it. I won't accept it.

FUCKING MOTHAFUCKAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!

Fucking mom won't let me go out because it's already very late!!!!! I'm 22 mothafucking years old!!!!!! I've been out so late so many times already!!!!!! I don't know how their fucking brains work!!!! If I were to go out to find trouble, then I'd have been in trouble a long time ago!!! I've already gone out and come home very late so many fucking times already!!!! Shit, I've even gone out and come home in the afternoon the next day before!!!!!! And they didn't say shit!!!! Fuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't to get out of this mothafucking shit of a place!!!!!!!! The ridiculousness here is just too much!!!! I wanna fucking move somewhere very far!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH, fuck this shit!!!! I want my fucking complete freedom!!!!!!!! My own car, my own job, my own place, my own everything!!!!!!! Fuck, I'm so fucking irritated!!!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Only 3 people greeted me on my birthday... Fuck you all... LOL

It seems like every year, my birthday just gets worse and worse. This year's was the lamest so far. If it wasn't for the 12-pack of beer that I bought, there wouldn't be a shred of celebration on that day. On the upside, though, I just met the girl that I have a crush on that day! We happened to ride the same subway while I was out to pick up some food from a Thai restaurant. She looked way cuter than I remembered! It's been, like, 2 years since I last saw her. I also stumbled upon my former co-worker from Circuit City. Based on his stories, it looks like he's doing pretty well, unlike me, who is still unemployed and broke(back mountain). What a life I have. I just want to quote something that Olivia Munn said when she was a guest on Loveline: "If I were to die today, that'd be cool." That's so true for me everyday. I feel more and more nihilistic as time passes by.