Friday, May 22, 2009

Can The Economy Get Any Kinder?

I have so many things in my head that I need to buy/think I need to buy: buy a car, go to a dentist, go have my eyes checked, buy a better battery for my netbook, buy a new PC, etc. I really need a job so that I can give money to my parents also. I'm so broke right now, it's really depressing. And I'm planning to get a haircut later this morning. All my remaining money won't come back, and nobody wants to hire me. What should I do, resort to prayer? Is that really going to help make my life better? If I asked for a better life, will I get it? We can barely even pay for school. Right now, all I can think about is how to have so much money that we no longer have anymore debts or problems about how to pay for anything. I've lost my faith on prayer. I'm tired of relying on divine power. I thought tithing will work, but it seems it doesn't work for me, or for my parents. There are so many godless people who have successful lives. Good things happen to bad people. I need those resources. I need change in my life, and it needs to happen now. Where is justice when I need it? I want to move on; I can't just keep having this stupid life forever. I can't accept it. I won't accept it.

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